Excited?

Missed a few days of blogging :p but I managed to do daily blogging of games :p please have a look at www.teamgamesc.blogspot.com. Any way tomorrow is the start of mine new job at a new place. Will be positive and happy go lucky and mainly experience new job scope.

Blog more tml night ^^   

Wet weather program

I wanted to go for a run while my wife going for a roller blade session. Due to the rain, none of them happen. We arrived at East Coast Park, with a drizzle that continued to become a pouring rain. Spend two hours in the car watching drama instead. At least have a good dinner with my wife (though we take away). 

Last night I had Hai Di Lao for dinner with 2 of my wife friends before, I order take away for her (or should I say left over for her with her requested item.) which ended up become our branch today.

Back to today topic, of wet weather program. Isn't it good to have your original plan to work but when unexpected thing happen you got to have a backup plan (wet weather program). So for those reading the blog, have your wonderful bright day plan but also do have a wet weather program on standby :p

Regards,

Rain Man

Gratitude

Today is a day that I am thankful for a lot of things. 2 years of fellowship and working relationship with my colleague. I thank them for the companionship that we have for the pass 2 years and some pass few months. 

Me moving forward to my next job that will end in May 23, before making the key decision of  heading over to Canada with a work permit or a study visa or a PR. Hence a lot of unknown but will keep everyone updated. 

Apart from all these matter, a great new that I hear today was that Novax just handed their paper and currently awaiting for approval. Can't wait for my wife so that she can be safe too. 

Regards,

Rain Maker

New Start..

 Another post after the last post in Nov 2016... ( I know it had been so long since I last posted and honestly speaking this blog is left unattended since the last post.) 

Anyway I will like to take this chance to share with viewer/people are are concern about me on the following for the pass 5 years since Nov 2016. 

First I had changed my job twice/thrice? a 7 year job, 2month job and a 2 year job. and now I am on a contract job that will end in May 2023. 

Second, I am married during this COVID-19 pandemic. Tie the knot legally on 6th Jun 2020 and being a  Chinese the traditionally wedding banquet was held in 3th April 2021.   

Thirdly, myself and my wife have plan of moving to Alberta, Canada(still haven't decided on the town/village) in 5~6 years time. Hence once travelling is open up, I will be heading over to explore.

With all the above that had happen, It kind of set me to this new start as per the tittle and I will want to start something and log it down in this blog.

Regards,

Rain Maker

Missing someone special

you will be surprised when someone special is gone from your life forever, when you had the feeling you could have done more...

could have pay her weekly visit, or even monthly... yet we only visit her on need to basis...

some time i wonder if i am really a good grandson or even a good son...

feeling confused... haiz...

Anti-Social or being weird?

Didn't deactivate my FB account however felt that I should pull myself away from social media to plan and think for myself...

going to see how long i can stay without FB.

State of mind

Having a confusing state of mine now... couldn't find peace with myself...

I really wonder what could be the reason or maybe I do know it deep in my heart but not willing to admit it...

Changing a job or not changing a job it is just another stupid stress that I gave myself... I do know what I want... and if there a chance I should take it before I regret it... I can always start later however it is the mind set I am having that matter...

some random line that set me thinking...

这个世界并不会因为你的怯懦，而对你心怀怜悯，一切都是要靠自己争取来的。如果不去争取，就算是属于你的，也会被别人抢走。

Ideas in the head

Had a Green project that is in my head,

not sure how to go about doing it... It goes like this, I believe the chinese know about the Sky Lantern where chinese will release their lantern to the sky, having best wishes written on it. I watched a video about a guy who want to know where did those sky lantern flew to. And most of them landed in the mountain. it is not just 1 or 2 but hundred and thousand of it.

Then it hit me, no that i disrespect the culture but it is the repercussion that from it. how long more before the mountain is going to be filled with rubbish?

really what do you guys think? and if possible i will want to meet liked minded people to do something meaningful.

Regards,
RainMaker

Follow your heart?

how to do you reply the person who asked you " Should I give him another chance?"

mine reply was " It your happiness of cos you decide, do you just listen to other people cos they say so?"

Late night conversation with someone which kinda ruined my mood, making it harder trying not to think about it. Honest I felt if in a relationship there are doubt clear it fast or just end that relationship. As least that what i learn from my relationship that ended in 2015.

Thinking back, i felt i didn't care much about them, or should i say didn't had much conversation with them. at least like what they like or how they got together and things like that...

There was never a proper or heartwarming session with them before... when I was younger at time

How I wish they are not just there but with me going through thing.

How I wish they are more educated rather than just me getting all the education.

How I wish they care more about me rather than me not knowing who care about me.

How I wish they can teach me rather than me asking others to do it.

How I wish they can spend more time with me.

I do know each and every family have their own problem but well mine is like a bible that I never tried to read it. The cover look good, but the content are drawn out expecting you to find out what the whole story is about.

Some time I do wish I had what arrow, sprit or even warrior had. Though they had their own problem too but I believe blood thicker than water...

Shall not say anymore, all I wanted to tell her is follow your heart, do what make you happy...

Regards,
Rain Maker.

Time of the year

Yes 2 days after time of the year...

where I am grateful for all the things that happen to me in the past 24 years.

all the up and down... some time I do wish i can jump back to the past not to change anything but to enjoy the moment again... Don't you people wish to do that?

Planning to do a reset for myself in may 2017. I wonder if it will come true...


Regards,
RainMan

That feeling

Not sure if it is just me or what but felt i had done something wrong... Not sure if it is my unintended action or just super dumb me.

Saw a photo, and what i see with my own eyes, my heart just sank.

After all this, and all the recent event, felt that i am suiciding if i'm to just jump in.

dunno what to say... saw a video on stages of love. thought i am going to stage 1 but guess i just found out i am at stage 0.


Just another emotional super morning...

Regards,
RainMan...

Somewhere deep down...

deep down in my heart I am rather confused...

unsure of what is right or what is wrong...

all are very gray as of what i am seeing...

Unsure who are reading this post but still wanna just share what is in my head and something deep in my heart...

What is love? how do we know we love someone? is it really possible to just end a relationship just like a click on the mouse? is it easy to love another person?

all those are my question... though I know the correct answer and what i should do (moving on). but I am rather reluctant to do so... wish that I can go back to solve the problem (if there is any).

knowing that it is not possible, I am just avoiding it as of now. When I am finally out of that state, suddenly falling in love seem to be very scary... will history repeat itself? rising to breakup with me when i am deeply inlove with you?

Loving people is a great thing to do, but getting rejected is not fun at all... less of the physical but so much more of the emotional pain...

told to slot myself before going into one. but maybe i am now the weak and pathetic boy that dont want to take the first step to ask a girl to be my gf... maybe i am waiting for a girl to ask me to be her bf... or till i really wanna ask someone to be my gf... so until then ... shall wait for Ms Left to ask me out.

that all folks,

Regards,
RainMan

钱水龙

我亲爱的外婆，愿您安息。不用担心我妈妈。。。

Recalling back in april when i visited my grandma in the hospital with my mum. and my mum just break down, crying in front of her, it really broke my heart. This felt worse compare to how i felt in december. There is only regret that I was unable to bring my mum to visit her once more before she left.

Just yesterday after me back from work my mum ask if this week when we can visit my grandma, I suggested this thursday after my shift. and today right after my work i got a sms from my uncle saying my grandma passed away.

My memory of my grandma is that she loves me a lot, every time i follow my mum to visit her she will always make sure i have food to eat and during cny she will always have something special for me. recall that in secondary school and in poly once a month i will be following my mum to my grandma place to visit. Me always finding it boring as there nothing for me to do other than watching tv. Thinking back I really love the time spending there talking to her and eating her super awesome cooking.

I felt what it really mean when people say spend the time you have with your parent. Cos you don't know when they might leave.

外孙，
仕昌

Risk

Having this thing in my head since I'm withdrawn from the US det. Leaving the force to do start up or find another job.

however there are a lot of consideration and lots of risk to take...

At time how i wish i can be the primary/secondary school kids where psle/olevel...

could be me feeling stressed up again >.<

regards,
RainMan

When one door closed another door open...

Told that mine trip is not happening... All the preparation and all the think that I prepared for are for nothing...

I am sad however life goes on... I do not really know what to expect other then I am being toyed with... feeling devastated by the news.

really wonder is it is the door problem or just me chasing after a door that is already closed...

sometime how i wish I am able to know if the doors suit me...

life is like a box of chocolate, you never know what you going have till you eat it... (of cos unless you brought the chocolate :p)


Best regard,
RainMan

Shock of mine life...

After living for 23years and 9months. I am told that I am a Hep B carrier.

so what is hepatitis b or Hep B in short?

"Hepatitis B is an infectious disease caused by the hepatitis B virus (HBV) which affects the liver. It can cause both acute and chronic infections. Many people have no symptoms during the initial infection. Some develop a rapid onset of sickness with vomiting, yellow skin, feeling tired, dark urine and abdominal pain." from wiki.

why is it such a surprise to me? that because I never knew about it. This set me thinking why I never know about it? don't the army do a check for Hep B in the pre-enlisting? if they do and I am not a non Hep B carrier it will be a scary matter.

Why? because Hep B is a blood transmission virus in short is the same way HIV being transmitted (blood or sexual intercourse). Quite sure i don't get it via the 2nd method, and it just set me thinking where and when did I get infected... 

But o well at least now i will know why I will be dead due to :p wahaha

staying positive ^^ not the end of the work just me continue life in a harder level :p

Regards,
Rain Maker

Short late night reflection

Reflection on the past few weeks...

I had an awesome solo trip to korea where I learnt a bit more of what solo trip and how solo trip mean to be... it is great and the experiences are unforgettable.

Through the trips and things I felt so much refresh and enjoyable...


With that I going to bed...

Night to the world,

Rain Man

Depressing situation

Got caught up in a rather depressing situation... honestly speaking I am rather pissed with the dealer on the court case. There is totally nothing to do with me, I guess the only fault or mistake I done is not sending the car to KAH auto for servicing.

However that doesn't really stop me from being happy cos I give no attention to it then what is required.

Guess the things that really get to me is Family - lost one in Dec. Now he is like still don't learn from his lesson, honestly I dunno how to assist him...

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was typing the above and side track to fb just now and found this quote is awesome...



What do you guys think? and it is by Peng Joon, who I feel he is an awesome guy but o well.


Best Regards,
Rain Man

Gunung Tahan

Pardon for the past week silence, went for hiking at Gunung Tahan. Climbed to the summit and enjoyed the sun rise and awesome night sky.

It is a 5d4n adventure, honestly speaking it is hard and tough but I enjoyed it. what do i enjoy?

The bonding with my ventures, the late night confession time. "This is my Confession" hehe.

It is rather those that make this trip so awesome. Some what I learn that I am a rather harsh person.

some awesome photo to share with my readers ^^









Regards
Rain Maker