Ideas in the head

Had a Green project that is in my head,

not sure how to go about doing it... It goes like this, I believe the chinese know about the Sky Lantern where chinese will release their lantern to the sky, having best wishes written on it. I watched a video about a guy who want to know where did those sky lantern flew to. And most of them landed in the mountain. it is not just 1 or 2 but hundred and thousand of it.

Then it hit me, no that i disrespect the culture but it is the repercussion that from it. how long more before the mountain is going to be filled with rubbish?

really what do you guys think? and if possible i will want to meet liked minded people to do something meaningful.

Regards,
RainMaker

Follow your heart?

how to do you reply the person who asked you " Should I give him another chance?"

mine reply was " It your happiness of cos you decide, do you just listen to other people cos they say so?"

Late night conversation with someone which kinda ruined my mood, making it harder trying not to think about it. Honest I felt if in a relationship there are doubt clear it fast or just end that relationship. As least that what i learn from my relationship that ended in 2015.

Thinking back, i felt i didn't care much about them, or should i say didn't had much conversation with them. at least like what they like or how they got together and things like that...

There was never a proper or heartwarming session with them before... when I was younger at time

How I wish they are not just there but with me going through thing.

How I wish they are more educated rather than just me getting all the education.

How I wish they care more about me rather than me not knowing who care about me.

How I wish they can teach me rather than me asking others to do it.

How I wish they can spend more time with me.

I do know each and every family have their own problem but well mine is like a bible that I never tried to read it. The cover look good, but the content are drawn out expecting you to find out what the whole story is about.

Some time I do wish I had what arrow, sprit or even warrior had. Though they had their own problem too but I believe blood thicker than water...

Shall not say anymore, all I wanted to tell her is follow your heart, do what make you happy...

Regards,
Rain Maker.

Time of the year

Yes 2 days after time of the year...

where I am grateful for all the things that happen to me in the past 24 years.

all the up and down... some time I do wish i can jump back to the past not to change anything but to enjoy the moment again... Don't you people wish to do that?

Planning to do a reset for myself in may 2017. I wonder if it will come true...


Regards,
RainMan

That feeling

Not sure if it is just me or what but felt i had done something wrong... Not sure if it is my unintended action or just super dumb me.

Saw a photo, and what i see with my own eyes, my heart just sank.

After all this, and all the recent event, felt that i am suiciding if i'm to just jump in.

dunno what to say... saw a video on stages of love. thought i am going to stage 1 but guess i just found out i am at stage 0.


Just another emotional super morning...

Regards,
RainMan...

Somewhere deep down...

deep down in my heart I am rather confused...

unsure of what is right or what is wrong...

all are very gray as of what i am seeing...

Unsure who are reading this post but still wanna just share what is in my head and something deep in my heart...

What is love? how do we know we love someone? is it really possible to just end a relationship just like a click on the mouse? is it easy to love another person?

all those are my question... though I know the correct answer and what i should do (moving on). but I am rather reluctant to do so... wish that I can go back to solve the problem (if there is any).

knowing that it is not possible, I am just avoiding it as of now. When I am finally out of that state, suddenly falling in love seem to be very scary... will history repeat itself? rising to breakup with me when i am deeply inlove with you?

Loving people is a great thing to do, but getting rejected is not fun at all... less of the physical but so much more of the emotional pain...

told to slot myself before going into one. but maybe i am now the weak and pathetic boy that dont want to take the first step to ask a girl to be my gf... maybe i am waiting for a girl to ask me to be her bf... or till i really wanna ask someone to be my gf... so until then ... shall wait for Ms Left to ask me out.

that all folks,

Regards,
RainMan

钱水龙

我亲爱的外婆，愿您安息。不用担心我妈妈。。。

Recalling back in april when i visited my grandma in the hospital with my mum. and my mum just break down, crying in front of her, it really broke my heart. This felt worse compare to how i felt in december. There is only regret that I was unable to bring my mum to visit her once more before she left.

Just yesterday after me back from work my mum ask if this week when we can visit my grandma, I suggested this thursday after my shift. and today right after my work i got a sms from my uncle saying my grandma passed away.

My memory of my grandma is that she loves me a lot, every time i follow my mum to visit her she will always make sure i have food to eat and during cny she will always have something special for me. recall that in secondary school and in poly once a month i will be following my mum to my grandma place to visit. Me always finding it boring as there nothing for me to do other than watching tv. Thinking back I really love the time spending there talking to her and eating her super awesome cooking.

I felt what it really mean when people say spend the time you have with your parent. Cos you don't know when they might leave.

外孙，
仕昌

Risk

Having this thing in my head since I'm withdrawn from the US det. Leaving the force to do start up or find another job.

however there are a lot of consideration and lots of risk to take...

At time how i wish i can be the primary/secondary school kids where psle/olevel...

could be me feeling stressed up again >.<

regards,
RainMan