Private S C Loh

As stated today I am a Private Loh, forgetting to put on my rank when I went to work today. It set me thinking about procrastination and it's effect. It have been 4 days since I wanted to do something about my english and start with my daily blogging. However only started 3 days later and almost unable to do the daily blogging.

Didn't manage to find 3 new word today. However shall not get my excuses for myself, fact is i didn't do it. Now need to know what to do to contain the situation.

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I felt a bit emotional today. not sure if it is due to the parade, it is getting nearer for me to leave for Arizona or the work that is left undone.

Feeling really up sad and bad by certain matter.

Heartache, how I wish i can get drunk everyday and numb myself and forget about things. Do know that is not possible after every hangover we still need to face the fact and the problem. So I not sure if it is solution from the almighty.

Regards,
RainMaker

English improvement blog

Took an advice from my senior, to improve my english will mean to write more and read more.

Therefore I will do my best to blog daily, either one a topic or an event that happened that day.

Hopefully by doing that i am able to improve my english. Also I will try to learn 3 new words daily.

Goals

Had a wonderful chat with my senior, CPT Des :p with great advise or set my mind thinking.

with Goals it is easy for us to move on. Life is rather hopeless and mindless if it is without a goal in mind.

Settling my goals before I fly for US for 2 years and goals for me to achieve when I am in US :p (skydiving is confirm one of them)


regards,
Rain Maker

Giving Thanks

Dedicate this post to give thanks for all those that assisted me for the past 23 years (going 24...I know)

Why a random thanks is because, after an awesome chat with a senior of mine, age 38 this year. He had somehow enlighten me.

Asking everyone this one question - Why do we work so hard for? Money? Sense of achievement? Ambition?

I feel everything boils down to this word "Happiness" isn't that what everyone work towards? 

Sometime happiness doesn't mean you must have the things, but by letting go and thank for all the things that happen is happiness. Simply be happy.

I want to dedicate this part to Evelyn, for being there and support me for the last 6 years. It was great to have her by my side knowing she will support me. However at the same time like to say sorry to her for not being able to be there when you need me. Sorry for not able make our relationship to the next stage. Really sorry for the hash text/words I might have used and all I can do for you will be wish that you find a better guy. More importantly wish that you stay happy.

Well that all. At times we really got to thank those around you for years (your best buddy, brothers/sister and most importantly your parents). Those people I had said to them personally so shall not repeat myself ^^ just for her that I will not tell her but just keep it somewhere in my heart and move on. ^^

With love

RainMan

Sum things up

I arranged to meet up with her. Petty much to sum things up and set my vision clear.

I guess I am going to give myself 3 more months to get emotional over it. Guess time to find some drinking buddy.

感情就像。。。

感情就像放風箏，該拉的時候就拉，該放的時候就要放，拉得太緊最後受傷的是自己，放得太多就失去對方。

同意那个说法。我该放手让自己活现在而不受过去。不过说的容易，做起来真的很难。不是一俩天的事而是六年的时间，我很难放下。

希望自己早日康复吧。。。

not sure why but just really felt like typing in Chinese for the day... 

Life without goals...

Though of that tittle while thinking back about my short pass of 20 years?

Notice that after Dec 15 where goal of getting married and starting a family is gone, it make me feel that all the things i am doing is meaningless. The plans, the surprise, the trips. some I have achieved but rather pointless.

a random of sadness on a Monday (guess is Monday blue wahaha).

Guess now not the time to go through the sadness and settle all the trouble is that in my way. Quite pissed with things...

Regards,
RainMaker